It Is Never Too Late to Answer the Call

It is NEVER too late to answer the Call ~ I have Jesus to guide me, The Holy Spirit to fill me, the Gospel to speak to me, The Holy Eucharist to draw me nearer, and the Rosary to strengthen me with Our Blessed Mother guiding me along the way.

The above first sentence spoke to me today. I am just amazed how God speaks to me over and over during the day. He sends me messages, speaks to me and I see him in so many people. I am so blessed- beyond comprehension. I am so excited to see where God is sending me or what he is sending to me. I pray every chance I can that I don't disappoint Him. I am so afraid of failing Him. I pray for the Holy Spirit to guide me.
Jesus is speaking to me again, and reminding me that the way of this life, the culture of this world, is not His way. I was finding it easier and easier to justify the sins because the whole world seems to be doing the same. That there were bigger sins we are committing than the obvious ones I was. What a sinner! There are no changing God's laws. God is not going to bend to accommodate our lifestyle. We are to bend to His way and He will bless us abundantly. We are to have faith in His laws. If we live in His holy will, he will carry us and strengthen us in all that we do.

In the past few years I have felt more and more distant from God. I prayed everyday, and attended weekly Mass, but without being able to participate fully. Because of my disconnect, I had lost my intimate connection with Jesus, he felt distant to me. I always knew He was with me and still carrying me- but I had lost the graces He had poured on me in the past. The greatest sadness I have ever known was losing that grace. Once anyone has had that kind of a connection to God, to be so filled with His grace for such a long time and then to lose it. There is NO GREATER LOSS. I never thought I would be too weak, never thought I could be such a sinner as to lose touch with Him. Satan is so strong. Do not ever under estimate the strength of the evil one. He knows our weaknesses and he dives in. But God is greater! Sometimes we fall, but with prayer and intercession of our great saints and loved ones, God shows us the way home. He stretches out His hand and begs us to take it. Telling us it will be hard, but beautiful and He will never leave us. I have grabbed His hands with my whole life and He is lifting me out of my abyss. I have had to make changes in my life that are not easy- or so it seems. God is with me and holding me strong in my decisions. And I will repeat, I am so afraid of failing again. I finally understand what my own sister has repeated to me over and over with her own life decisions. Her greatest fear was losing touch with God and falling again. Our circumstances are completely different but so much the same.

Anima Christi

Soul of Christ, sanctify me.

Body of Christ, heal me.

Blood of Christ, drench me.

Water from the side of Christ, wash me.

Passion of Christ, strengthen me.

Good Jesus, hear me.

In Your wounds shelter me.

From turning away keep me.

From the evil one protect me.

At the hour of my death call me.

Into Your presence lead me,

to praise You with all Your saints

for ever and ever. Amen.